Have you ever sat and looked at your computer and wondered what to write? I've been doing that a lot lately. It seems that the more I try, the harder it becomes. There may be too much on my mind these days.
I’m at a stage in life where I have to make some major decisions. What I decide will alter the course of my life, but I think I need to make something happen. If I do nothing, everything will stay the same. What to do is a matter of how I choose to steer my life. So how does that affect my writing?
It makes me not want to be honest about what is happening in my life. That causes me to resist writing. Currently, there are only a small, very small, group of people who have a clue as to what I’m talking about. They are all supportive but I am still restricted on what I can say. Why does that upset me?
I feel as though most people want me to fit in some sort of role that isn't really me. Most of us have that issue but now I’m faced with the prospect of weighing what’s best for me and what everyone else wants. There should come a time in life when fitting someone else’s idea of me shouldn’t matter. And I've waited a very long time for my life to be mine.