Have you ever noticed how the people around you expect you to be a certain way? In other words, they want you to fit a mold. For a mom, it is the hardest part of her life.
For me it has become more and more of an issue. There is large part of me that has been pushed aside for many years for others. It isn’t any different for most moms I just chose to do something a lot of them don’t do. I started college after they were grown. I now have dreams that I did not think I would ever have the opportunity to experience. This seems to cause problems for those who want me to fit a mold.
To fit that mold would mean that I give up everything I want to do or experience because others have a plan for me. Don’t think I have regrets. I do not regret the path I have taken to this point. I would not have my kids and that would have been a horrible thing. My dilemma is simple. When do I start living my life the way I choose? I am, after all, a person with feelings and dreams. My dreams were put in a box for a very long time. They are not the same as they were 30 years ago, but they still involve experiencing new things.
I’m at a crossroad in my life and I need to make a decision. The decision could make or break me.