Yes, you read correctly with the title. I am now gainfully employed. It has been so long. I couldn’t even get a bite for almost a year. Ok, maybe I had two interviews. But all I ever got was an email that said, “I’m sorry but we found someone better”. I know, not those exact words, but I can read between the lines. I didn’t get this far not being able to figure things out.
The worst part of being unemployed, aside from the financial issue, is being rejected over and over again. The emails or letters in the actual snail mail that say you were not chosen. There was someone else who fit their needs more closely. I have so many of those on file that I’ve run out of space in the physical file and the email file is huge. Then there are the things that people don’t say but you know they are thinking.
You all know my relationship with my husband is not good. He hasn’t had issues with this time I’ve had without a job, but he has in the past. He hasn’t had problems finding a job when he needed to or just wanted to change jobs. I, on the other hand, have had a myriad of issues. For years it had to do with our youngest, Amanda. From the time she was four, there have been times when she was not able to go to school for weeks at a time. I can remember times it was three weeks at a stretch. A cold would keep her out for a week. When she got a virus of some sort that was more intense than a cold, it could be a month. If it was a case where she spent time in the hospital, she could be out for longer than a month. It was that way for the rest of her life.
Then there was the child care problem. How hard do you think it is to find a daycare provider willing to take a child that had to be carried at times, had severe osteoporosis, was prone to seizures, and didn’t say words you could understand? It is difficult. Then if you are lucky enough to find someone, will they keep her all day with all the other healthy kids when she can’t go to school? I don’t know any daycare that does that. I’ve only known one and that happened to be run by my maid of honor. She runs one in her home and she always took Amanda. The problem was we didn’t live where she does for more than a couple of years.
So this round has been especially difficult. I have never considered myself a freeloader even though I’m sure others have. When you’ve been married as long as I have I don’t understand that thought. I feel like I’ve contributed because I did have kids that I drove all over the place and made sure they were doing things they wanted to do. I even became a Cub Master for the boys because no one else could do it. The perception that I sit around all day doing nothing is FAR from the truth. I still have school and I love taking pictures. Some of which I have shared here. I have also been putting in applications all over the place. That takes a lot of time and energy no matter what anyone thinks.
I’m looking forward to this new challenge. I am so ready to have a schedule again. It means I can breathe now. Yay!